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2007-02-21T22:36:00.000+08:00

ok i've decided to go over to lj.so you can find me at http://crackpotfool.livejournal.com/.
still deciding if i'm gonna move over totally.so for now i'll leave my blog untouched.
so randomly i'll post here and there depending on my mood.(:
oh and beware.it's very very green.(:

2007-02-21T22:08:00.000+08:00

i'm thinking of moving everything over to my lj.it's so much easier to just blog everything in one blog rather than signing into two different ones just so i can blog.sometimes some things just can't be said to everyone.that's why i love lj's private entries.(:

but i love blog coz you can put loads of stuff in the random columns and stuff.

ok i'm off to figure out how to out my stuff in lj.and if i figure it out then to lj my webbeing shall shift.

2007-02-10T20:30:00.001+08:00

my dad reformatted Cdrive.so my comp is working better and faster now.yay.and we're gonna get a new monitor.soon.yay.finally get a proper working one.my current one is really screwed.but at least i can still use it.(:

my sister got a freaking macbook!arh.i want also.

i feel so what the hell.i get upset that _'s pics are in your friendster.basket.you are not even mine and i feel jealous?no right amanda.no right.bah.

2007-02-09T21:28:00.000+08:00

sjc's o's results are great!much better than our batch:(.oh pure lit was good!and mrs tan was really happy.(info courtesy of shermaine, ani and kathy(:)

TOP SCORER ROCKS!coz she's staying on in cj.yay aggie.i rock coz i predicted your 6points.haha.no la.you rock!i'm so jealous of aggie.she got the smarts and she got athletics going and she so musically inclined and she got the looks.anyway congrats girl on your 6points(:.
and the cj girls all got good enough to stay on.(:
gerald is such a big idiot.bluff me.stupid 21 points.slap you la!i don't like you anymore!stupid boy get 12!

school is stress.but it's getting better.getting into the flow of things and coping much.and catching up too.(:i need study dates with pre.1)coz i need to study hard, 2)coz i need to study with people other than cjcians or i'll soon forget there's life outside cj and 3)coz i MISS HER SO FREAKING MUCH.hello we have not met since last years' lunch at bombers.damn that's long.

bestie!it's ok.look at your options see what's the best.and work at hard at whatever you choose to embark on.i'm here for you.if you need help or opinions can just call me.my phone is on 24/7.(:but don't so crazy call at 4am.i will just say fuck you la and go back to sleep.haha.unless it's hols then feel free to call me then!haha.it's not the end.it's the begining of a new chapter.move on and move up.no matter what i <3 bestie!(:

2007-02-03T22:51:00.000+08:00

tomorrow is gonna be long.
cathecism at 9.then mass at 1015.then chiong down to town for fundraising from 1-5.
will at least i don't have anything after that.poor taa has class cip.all the way at choa chu kang.good luck to her.
histort work is killing me!it's seriously alot.the readings are enough to kill me.
and math is getting tough.i don't understand anything about vectors.
econs is alright.other than the fact that i have a horribly terrible teacher.
thank god for chem.(:

if you are free tomorrow.head down to town between 1 to 5.and give me a call.
i'll be raising funds so you can come donate and see me dressed as a heart and laugh heartily and then donate again.

o's results out next week.good luck to all.
and gerald.you better stay on in cj.

2007-01-28T19:33:00.000+08:00

yay.green-ness!
was thinking since i can't get my green nano seeing as i'm too poor to afford it and too impatient to wait til i've saved enough, might as well have a green blog!hehe.
i'm probably gonna hunt for a green cover for my nano.when i eventually do get around to buying it.
the plan is to get it tomorrow but i don't know if i will.see how lazy i feel after school.heh.

been having an obsession with green as well in addition to my obsession with my love.
oh and an obsession with songyao's playlist.
and an obsession with doing homework.
and an obsession with constantly tekaning/suaning ivan.
and an obsession with music.oh wait that's an old obsession.

i have been on this inanimate object for too long.time to go spend some time with human beings.
and then on to more relationships with inanimate objects as i study and prepare for school tomorrow.

oh i have an obsession with school.not exactly an obsession i want but one i force myself to have so i will do all my homework and study hard.
A's are in about ten months time.oh wait make that nine.january is coming to an end.

2007-01-18T22:23:00.000+08:00

i'm so obsessed with justin timberlake's my love.the music is so smooth.and the lyrics are just so woah.i've been obsessed since it first came out.that's so freaking long.

if i wrote you a symphony, just to say how much you mean to me, what would you do?
if i told you you were beautiful, would you date me on the regular?
if i wrote you a love note, and made you smile with every word i wrote, what would you do?
this ring here represents my heart, but there's just one thing i need from you, saying i do.
all i want you to do is be my love.

phwoar.

priyanca lent me her grey's soundtrack.and she's gonna lend me the second one.
songyao sent me some really good songs yesterday.
so i have many many good songs.i want more!
haha.i just love songyao's ipod.his song's are like shiok la.all damn nice.(:

2007-01-16T22:35:00.000+08:00

school's been a bitch.actually it's been fun.the jungle in the back row.ha!class joke.(wow.we have a class joke.looks like things are looking up for class relations.)

my body clock is totally screwed up.i've been sleeping way too much at odd hours.but today i didn't nap in the afternoon so hopefully i'll be able to sleep properly.

workload piling.discussed option with mum today.might be going ahead with it.have to discuss with dad.and then have to see if the school will allow me to.

weather was a little screwed up and they chose to show the day after tomorrow.how apt.

chingay has been fun.started off with an all-cj-except-our-nj-leader group.then the next training we had four additions.and one of them happens to be jeslyn's friend who crashed MI last year's chinese new year.when i crashed jeslyn's class.heh.this weekend's gonna be at j8 with some prep for the fundraising.

i get random surges of moments where i feel like crying for no reason at all.and i don't know why.they come super randomly.i think it's the stress.but i'm damn proud of myself!I DID MY MATH HOMEWORK!ON MY OWN!haha.so proud.(:first time since entering cj where i did my math on my own.and i helped yujun with a math question.oh my seriously feel so proud of myself.(:

tests looming.deadline for hist p1 research assignment looming.homework piling.option1 is tough, i'm surving but barely.the random crazy stuff we do and all the nonsense moments really takes a whole load off.most of my time in class is with sam, songyao, priyanca, goldie, ivan and edward.the jungle gang.really all the nonsense is helping.(:

i was given option1.maybe i should have choosen option2.maybe i still have the chance.maybe.

and i'm really glad i get to see you everyday.and talk to you.coz you just have this knack of doing and saying the sillyest things that make me laugh no matter how boring or tiring or painful the day has been.

2007-01-05T21:15:00.000+08:00

school started.sucks.really don't know if i made the right choice to stay on and do j2.everyday i feel like leaving.but i promised songyao i would wait til february tests til i decide.

many many great sjc juniors(:.people like ani mainey anne aggie kathy pkhiu yujun corinne michelle and the likes.some weird ones who i never knew existed in sjc.oh well.and the random ones whom i don't really know.
and then there's gerald.

cca bazaar was so full of shit.i stuck the stupid flyer on myself and spent the whole time walking around.with marcus at first then after that with CLEO!(:she came back to visit.(:so happy to see her.was walking around talking to everyone.i swear it was boring shit to stay near the bloody booth.we targeted to recruit 7 people.we have 21 names.rocks.

school is seriously pising me off.our class is in the d block 4th floor right at the end.it sucks coz we're so isolated from everyone.we were late for assembly yesterday coz we didn't realise it was time to go down.coz we can't really hear the bell from our class and our classroom is so far away.

bused home with mainey.it's been too long girl(:.we need more rides home together.when the buses are less crowded and people are more considerate and move in.(:

srjc tomorrow.chingay.supposedly it's ice-breakers tomorrow.people from t10 going.a few of us only.pris claire gene boris weiloong noah.well at least they all said they wanted to and got the forms.edward the kfc boy is going with the people from sr who went last year.they wanted it to be a whole class thing but the rest didn't want.bah my class has shrunk to 17.t10 might go down to 16 after feb tests.arh.still deciding.

i want chocolate but my mum won't buy for me.bah.

2006-12-30T01:21:00.001+08:00

i love the festive season coz it means i'll get to meet with the family very often.and i love that(:.

sitting in a very clean house.listening to the simon&garfunkel ld playing.enjoying the fact that all cleaning has been done.and gleefully happy with the promise from daddy that we'll go buy my psp on the 2nd.he's gonna top up what i'm short then i can pay him back later after saving up enough.(:yay.daddy rocks.

mahjong on sunday with the churchies.either taa or josh's place(:.i have to be home by 3):.but that's alright coz i've got to be home to get ready for the wedding dinner(:.where i'll see the family again(:.

and the family is coming over on new years.yay!i love family gatherings.even though sometimes i may feel a little sian but i just love the time with the family(:.most people have happy pills in friends.but my happy pills appear first and best in the family(:.

2006-12-27T23:45:00.000+08:00

it sucks when people forget your birthday and happily talk to or message you with a merry christmas on your birthday.
23rd was spent cleaning.
christmas eve was spent cleaning.helping mummy with baking.going to northpoint to pass taa the gingersnaps.then busing down to st anne's for a very crowded pageant and mass.then to auntie pris's place for celebration with family.
christmas day was spent sleeping in.cleaning.christmas dinner at uncle steve's place.birthday wishes at midnight from family.(:
daddy was the first to wish me(:.
twinny was the first among friends to wish me(:.
thanks twinny, stef, and taa for the midnight wishes.(:
thanks limin and wong for the morning wishes.(:
thanks anisha, pet, silpa, siti, maybelle and andrea for the wishes throughout the day.
thanks clarissa, jaslyn, gerald, andrew, pre, priyanca, aneesa for the belated wishes.
thanks loraine, peggie and sondra for the early wishes.
thanks everyone else who wished me but i forgot to mention.
and all of you who didn't...are evil evil creatures who made me sad and wanna cry on my birthday.heh.
my birthday was spent....cleaning!oh how fun.nobody wanted to go out with me.and when taa did ask me i already promised my parents i'd clean the house with them.bah.
how enjoyable.threw so much rubbish out.even had stuff from as far back as primary 5.
today was spent cleaning too.argh.i thought i was gonna end up sneezing my brains out.
amd tomorrow is gonna be the last day of cleaning!yay.finally done.
hopefully we can finish it all in the morning so i can try to convince my parents to let me go to josh's house tomorrow evening.

aight and now we're off to dinner.at midnight.nice.ok well more of supper coz even though we didn't have dinner we did eat stuff throughout the day.

2006-12-20T00:36:00.000+08:00

ok.i'm back.
it was super duper way fun!
love the group(:.
all the t13 people and sondra.(:
fun fun.
not gonna blog about it coz i have to write a report on it so i'm lazy to write about it twice.heh.
yay.

oh and congrats gerald.see you in school.oh shit.means we'll see each other practically every day next year.damn.i don't want to see your face so often.

2006-12-13T22:03:00.000+08:00

taa is back from indon!yay.but i'm leaving tomorrow.boo.
back next tuesday.yay!and it'd be so much nearer to christmas then.yay.
i cannot wait for christmas.that fuzzy feeling you get when you celebrate with family and friends.well i enjoy that every year round.so i love december very much.those of you who don't can come and look for me.i'll share the love with you(:.

christmas makes me such a softie.

saw someone's picture and that funny feeling from a long time past came back.bah.
received a message from another someone and another funny feeling came back.bah.
i think i am very full of nonsense.but i'll recover soon enough.(:

12days til christmas.oh my gosh.it's that near!i didn't realise it.hahahaha.yay!

oh and i am very annoyed by the commercialised version of christmas.the songs about rudolph and santa and all that nonsense just annoy me so much when you walk into every single shop or shopping centre and all you hear is that.

2006-12-12T21:46:00.000+08:00

this is really wow.touching and inspirational.you'll definitely be touched.
http://www.teamhoyt.com/

2006-12-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

note to self.never use handphone to call churchies in conference.
thanks to that onehour chat(which actually is only a quarter the time of our usual chat) which i used my handphone to call in with i bombed my bill.
ok it's not really bomb.just $16 but still.i've never even got close to using up my mintues and sms.and now i overshoot by $16.bah.so i owe my mum $16.i'm going consistently poorer by the day.
helping out in church tomorrow.canteen duty.730amto12noon.so far it's just gerald and myself from the jcats.bah.
my brother just came home.and he bought bombers food home!i'm off to chow down on the yummy potato salad.toodles.(:

2006-12-09T02:59:00.000+08:00

peekchures!
4g bbq at east coast.
i'm going to sleep now.so no updates.no captions for pictures.just pictures.
more when i get hold of the pictures the others took.
toodles.

though i'm rather annoyed with those who said they were coming but today suddenly said they weren't.it's ok.coz overall we had a good time(:.

2006-12-06T22:25:00.000+08:00

taa.what nonsense.buang is such a weird code name for hot guys.trust claire to come up with that in her silly nonsense brain.
trey!hello you.i have not talked to you or whined to you for a very long time.i'm sure you miss that.heh.for fear of your Dr Phil mode, i say yes i'm happy!(:oh well happy enough is enough.

enough is such a weird word.don't you all think so?

went gymming and christmas shopping with mummy today.most of the presents are down.got for all the little kiddies and decided on gifts for the god-kids(my parents god-kids of course).only left with one more.and i got a bright red shirt which i'm gonna wear for mel's wedding.(:now i'm left with getting a tee for christmas and i'm all set!got the email on the details of the langkawi trip.i'm so psyched for it.i hope i don't fall off a cliff or something.

i wanted to blog about something.but i forgot.

4g bbq.friday 8thdec.east coast park pit 59.6pm on.if need be, meet peggie and co. at bedok interchange at 530pm.bring at least $8 to pay for the bbq.if you don't pay then, stay away from the food!a direct command and order from the 'caterer'.any queries feel free to contact me.(:

2006-12-04T20:05:00.000+08:00

volunteering at standard chartered marathon is crazy.we had to be there at 3am.we went as baggage crew.helping keep the runners bags.and i swear standard chartered is too smart.cardboard boxes stacked on each other?i'm sure the bottom box can hold the weight.freaking practically every bottom box collapsed.and we ended up ripping them up to lay on the floor to place the bags on.smart.the best part is that it happens every single year and yet they still use the same thing again and again.brilliant.

and now i'm sitting at home when i should be sitting in raffles hotel jubilee hall.bugger.i'm grounded til after my trip.bugger.and now i'm off to transfer 20bucks to beckie for my ticket for the play which i am sitting at home blogging instead of sitting in raffles hotel jubilee hall watching.bugger.i miss the juniors much and the time i'm supposed to get to see them is gone.

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.
You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?
You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

2006-12-02T02:05:00.000+08:00

bah.i feel like shit.
not in a good mood.
not a good day, not a good time.
i wish i hadn't signed up for the stan chart thingy.
we have to be there at fucking 3am!fucking organisers make volunteers come at ungodly fucking hour of fucking 3am.and thanks to that and my stupidity of not asking and not finding out and not have anyone tell me it's at 3am til today that my mum and dad are pissed with me.and the bitch just totally insulted me again today.argh ~~i wish she would just not come back.everytime she's here all she does is criticise and condemn and judge me.~~argh.
and the plan is for everyone to stay over at taa's place tomorrow night so we can all cab down together.
but i can't.i'll have to stay home and because of that they have to make a detour just to pick me.
and cause i'm going for the stan chart thing i have this funny feeling they won't let me go out on monday.
which is the day of the centerstage production.
so to everyone whom i told i'd be going and was so happy that i was finally going to see after so long, especially the juniors, forgive me if i don't go ok.don't hate me.
and kristle i'll pay you the 20bucks.don't hate me.
so wonderful i'm gonna pay for a play i'm not gonna get to see.
and oh my gosh!i just remembered!anisha still owes me 15bucks for the last play!i totally forgot about it.i never did ask her even though i saw her practically everyday.and now she's graduated and i won't see her that often.maybe not anymore.dang.
this sucks.i feel like shit.my mum and dad ain't happy with me.a-i is probably annoyed coz i'm gonna trouble them.and on monday many people are gonna be annoyed coz i'm gonna break promises to many people.
i seriously feel like shit now.
but i'll get over it.i just had to rant a little.
why do i even bother.

what can we do about it?after all they are our parents.we can't just stand up and say i don't care i'll do whatever i want.coz no matter what we do care about them and they about us.
aah this sucks.i hate this type of moods.when you're all sleepy and moody yet you know what's right and can't go against it.bugger.

i'm being so long-winded but no matter how much i blog it desn't seem to help.i think i better go sleep on it.

2006-11-26T22:15:00.000+08:00

HELLO NITHA!!!aaaahhhh!how come you randomly appear in my blog?!

angies' birthday celebration.buffet at sakura.oh my gosh i'm so freaking full.we ate from like 12+ til 230 and until now i'm still full.shiok shiok.but the price also quite shiok la.$24nett.whatever it was shiok.went window shopping, they pooled after that.

on the way to monster taa started saying how some places reminds her of kang and out of nowhere i thought of PS pastamania and how it reminds me of deena.and then in monster they played the scientist by coldplay and once again that song reminds me of deena.and i go home and started listening to wmp which has many songs which remind me of random people.it played look what you've done by jet and that reminds me of amirah and avril during sec3 emaths lesson where we were trying to figure out what the song was.the reason by hoobastank reminds me of avril coz she sang it during sec3 teachers day and i was really in love with that song during that time.light in your eyes by blessed union of souls reminds me of anne lim coz i've always liked that song but i forgot about it for quite a while and i remembered it when she put it on her blog a few years back.greatest story ever told by oliver james too!coz she had it as her blog song and that's where i first heard it.heh.and lian ai ing by mayday reminds me of farah!haha.she loves that song.

ok there's quite a lot more.but my old playlist had so many more songs that reminds me of so many more people who i certainly miss very much coz i have not seen many of them for very long.

i'm so excited for tuesday!out with limin and wong.finally.i have much homework to finish tomorrow.

if adam and eve were chinese we'd all be living in paradise now.they would have ignored the apple and eaten the snake.

[edit1036]
this is damn funny!when i read the outcome i was reminded of my MI days.hahahahaha.

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Quirky, offbeat, and even a little campy - your life appeals to a select few.But if someone's obsessed with you, look out! Your fans are downright freaky.
Your best movie matches: Office Space, Showgirls, The Big Lebowski

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

Your fans are downright freaky.LAUGH OUT LOUD PLEASE!

2006-11-20T17:33:00.000+08:00

today is good.supp results are good.promoted(:.sim lim, got my camera memory card.town, anthea and taa pooled.home.and soon i shall be going for dinner with my mum and bro.sakae!(:finally gonna satisfy my craving.(:

it's so great that i've been promoted.but shit, that means i have to do homework.damn.

2006-11-19T00:34:00.000+08:00

yesterday was crazyness.i saw so many people that i didn't expect i would see.
met carmelita furball fatball porkchops chen da da, kua wan horny silly milly sally molly wronster rong and yunxin.town for job interview which we had to wait 3hours for.the thing is that yesterday i met many people.so many that i've forgotten some of them.
shopping around topshop at wisma met melanie.walking to the mrt station to head home met andrea,cheryl anne and their friends.took a bus down to gardens with my dad and walked over to this coffee shop to meet a distant uncle of mine to go for my great-grand-uncle's wake.met great-powerful-mighty-one at a coffeeshop along the way.sat down and rachel walked past.headed to the wake saw this random sjc girl whom i don't know but apparently she's in st helen and badminton.and then kristle! came with her mum and aunts and what-not.saw this other girl from sjc, dawn walking in while i was sitting there.then suddenly monica appeared.[woah my dad knows her family.her uncle and my dad are like damn good friends since kampung days.]then home.
today was crazy too.
went for uncle tart's funeral at st francis xavier and then cremation.i tell you the church is seriously damn nice.so went to take communion and when walking back i walked past the choir and i saw naomi in the choir.then went for the cremation and all.rushed down to ihm for mama's 2nd death anniversary mass.after communion i turned around and out of nowhere i saw my catholic retreat facil standing at the back.then i looked around and i saw hazel sitting over the other side.then on the bus down to gardens after mass i saw that sec3 chem teacher whatever her name is, i forgot coz she was such a horribly lousy teacher.
i don't know why i keep on seeing people this few days.i think i know too many people in the serangoon area.

2006-11-17T01:20:00.000+08:00

supps are over.supps are over.supps are over.supps are over.
did i mention?SUPPS ARE OVER!
i'm free!yay!

ok so today was a buggerful day.
i went all the way there at the bright and early 745.and then pet tells me it's at 1.wonderful.
so i slack slack slack til 1.then it was over at 4!yayness.
bus bus to taa's place.stupid 980 driver.drive like some snail.so freaking slow!
then slack slack slack.decided to head to sembawang shopping centre for dinner.called mr gerald lim.and he agreed.so walked there.and along the way there taa received a phone call.we got pangsehed.bugger.stupid horny lucius lim.[or lorny lucius lim?then there's alliteration but the phrase makes no bloody sense.]
such a buggerful day.

but yet such bliss!because the supps are over!i am a free child again.so please date me out!
especially limin.and also prethika.coz you people i miss very very much and can't wait to see and talk cock and catch up on all the silly nonsense we've been doing.hurry!before i get a job.and before i leave for my langkawi trip.and before school starts again.

oh yes.4gr bbq!tentative.8thor9thdec.within that weekend.so 4gr people, read this and let me know if

definitely!ons!
most probably yes will confirm later
not sure will confirm later
wish i could go but really cannot
i don't give a fuck!why you crazy people always wanna have bbq and shit.

call tag comment sms email snailmail telegram carrierpigeon.your choice.

2006-11-15T17:36:00.000+08:00

i tried aj math paper.
on monday i got 18marks.that's my promo score.wow.
and today i got 36 marks.super.i doubled it.
but still that's a fail.
blah.
i can't seem to do all the funny sequence and integration questions.blah.
and since no one else is at home my wmp has been blasting music for the last three hours.
wow i've been doing math for that long?

anyway one song which i really don't understand is john mayer's waiting on the world to change.
he talks about how people say he and his friends will never make and mean nothing at all.
and how it's so hard to fight against something so strong.
then he says they're waiting on the world to change.
someone please explain to me how waiting will help change the world.
waiting?why wait?
i mean seriously if you really dislike the way the world is going then DO SOMETHING!
don't sit on your asses and wait for the world to change.
coz unless someone does something the world is gonna stay the same.
like how many people totally abhor the education system in the singapore.
most of them just complain to no end.
but there's some of them who are working their asses off to get top quality grades.
so they can get into the ministry and change it such that younger generations will not have to go through the same thing.
there's so many things you can do to change the world.
no need for some big thing like becoming the president of the united states and changing all the policies.
even just the littlest thing of boycotting certain companies coz they use methods which go against your morals and values.
the most important is to first change yourself.
maybe then will you be able to influence others and in this way change the world.

2006-11-09T18:45:00.000+08:00

3, 8, 10, 15, 20.
those are the false ones.
haha.i'm good.
you all lousy.

bleah.i'm sick.
apparently i'm always sick?
well that's what dal said.
bah.i don't like being sick.
ok i'm off to watch goong.heh.

2006-11-03T23:35:00.000+08:00

One. Think of 15 short bits of interesting stuff about yourself. And they've gotta be true.
Two. Come up with 5 false statements regarding yourself, but for fun's sake keep them in the threshold of believability.
Three. Jumble them all up together and list them in any order.
Four. Post them on your blog and let people guess which the five false ones are!
Five. Get 6 others to do the same

i believe that everyone is a little bi inside.
i hated my primary school.the one i was in for pri5&6.
i believe in love at first sight.
i'm half swedish-portuguese and half chinese.
i have swedish, finnish, english, portuguese, malay, etc[meaning more which i'm unsure of] blood flowing in me.
my favourite subject is math.
i really enjoy history.alot.
i am very upset coz my eyecandy is together with a guy who is apparently a total asshole.despite the fact that he treats her like a princess, i still don't like it.
i'm currently watching princess hours on youtube.[quite loser.yes i know.]
i'm falling for a classmate.taa and gerald and shawn should know who i'm refering to.
i have not been clubbing in an actual club but i've experienced clubbing atmosphere and i do not like dancing around and having random people dance around you with their sweaty bodies rubbing against you.
i friendster-hop quite often nowadays coz i'm getting bored of the www.
i have a clique of crazy, sexual, horny friends and we are the alcohol-induced.
ironically we met in church.and yet we are still such crazy,sexual, horny little idiots.
i'm still crushing on someone who was my classmate.
i enjoy a smoke once in a while.i find it helps destress.
i find old and very fat bungs disgusting.like a particular one i see in the mornings at the mrt station who has a face that looks like a pig, well in my opinion.
i think i'm bi.
i think korean guys in general are ugly.but yul in goong is quite good-looking.better than the rest at least.
i think that all of us are born bi and later on in life decide which sexual orientation we prefer.

i did this coz pre named me.
so i name carmelita, gerald, limin, wong, anne, and neighbour.(:
and now i'm off.

2006-11-01T22:20:00.000+08:00

hello.
everyone should study hard.
i have been studying hard since that wednesday.
and i shall study hard til that thursday.
and i shall pray hard for that monday.
then i decide what to do.

and now i go do my op.
the stupid thing is screwed.
the line spaces and shit are screwed.
the graphs are screwed.
and there's excess info on some slides.
so i have to go delete it all.
edit it all.
change the shit.
so byebye.

2006-10-28T02:05:00.000+08:00

i got bored.so i did many of these.and put some here.
the fortune cookie ones are hilarious!
but i edited them.coz if i pasted the whole script it'd be too long.
so just one with the pic and the rest just the lines.(:

Your Fortune Is

Man who run behind car get exhausted.

The Wacky Fortune Cookie Generator

Your Fortune Is Man who walk through airport door sideways is going to Bangkok.
Your Fortune Is Man who live in glass house should change clothes in basement.
Your Fortune Is Never have sex with a stranger unless you are stranger than them.
Your Fortune Is Just because men have one, doesn't mean they have to be one.
Your Fortune Is Virginity like bubble, one prick all gone.
Your Fortune Is Man who scratch ass should not bite fingernails.
Your Fortune Is 7/5th of all people do not understand fractions.
Your Fortune Is Passionate kiss like spider web, soon lead to undoing of fly.
Your Fortune Is To make a long story short, don't tell it.
Your Fortune Is Man with hole in pocket feel cocky all day.
Your Fortune Is Man who stand on street corner with hands in pockets, not feeling crazy, feeling nuts.
Your Fortune Is He who laughs last, thinks slowest.

2006-10-27T23:36:00.000+08:00

i don't care how we've changed.
i don't care how we've drifted.
i don't care how we've not met up for very long.
you all are still the most important to me.
and i'll always cherish everything we had.

limin.
it's the same everywhere.
we have classmates who might spoil things.
but there are the others who make it all the better.
so just tolerate and accept.
strengthen the bridges which matter and ignore the shakey ones which don't.
you are special no matter what.
and i appreciate all you've done.
and i'm SUPER happy and content that i have you as my friend.(:

2006-10-24T19:05:00.000+08:00

bugger i'll have to wait til tomorrow afternoon.
but at least i know i'm not one of those who are strongly encouraged to leave.
thsoe people saw bro paul yesterday.
and i qualify for supp papers.
bugger shits.and they told us to go back and enjoy til wednesday.
i'm sure everyone of us are enjoying the wait.

Put your music player on shuffle. Press forward for each question. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if they don't make sense. You'll be surprised though.. NO CHEATING!
How are you feeling today?: mr brightside
Will you get far in life?: just the girl
How do your friends see you?: 100 years
Will you get married?: i wish i was a punk rocker
What is your best friend's theme song?: pop princess
What is the story of your life?: bent
What was high school like?: neighbourhood
How can you get ahead in life?: that's my goal [right....]
What is the best thing about your friends?: give or take(friends forever) [cool!]
What is today going to be like?: qi li xiang
What is in store for this weekend?: lonely no more
What song describes you?: yellow
To describe your grandparents?: grand theft autumn
How is your life going?: mr jones
What song will they play at your funeral?: crazy [woah!perfect.]
How does the world see you?: helena
Will you have a happy life?: sugar we're going down [oh no!]
What do your friends really think of you?: wake me up when september ends
Do people secretly lust after you?: i think we're alone now [now i know...heh heh.]
How can I make myself happy?: ocean avenue
What should you do with your life?: every rose has its thorns
Will you ever have children?: stand by me
end.

ok that was damn nonsense.
i think the one i did last time was more accurate.

2006-10-22T23:25:00.000+08:00

happy happy birthday to pre!
well technically belated coz your birthday was friday.
but i didn't have the time to blog til now.
and i did call you on your birthday though it was missed.
and i promise you will have your surprise non-birthday party at macdonalds soon.heh.(:

friday and saturday was the cj j1 catholic retreat.
was good.made a friend in marcus the facil, told him some stuff which i haven't told anyone.
and that was like a few hours after i met him?heh.retreats do that to me.
and evelyn was my other facil!yay!didn't think i would meet her again and then poof she's my facil.
and my group mates rock.
amelia benjy boris christine don noel and trudy.(:
we've all been in the same religion class the whole year and yet we never talked.
retreat was good.
taa you seriously should have gone.they allowed people to leave early.
baah.first catholic camp i've been for without you guys.
you and petrina didn't go.baah.felt weird.

back to school!
i shall enjoy my last week with this class.
even though i have my problems with them.i shall make the effort to bridge the gap.i shall just ignore their dislike and live with the ones who appreciate me and i will be happy.
thanks ben and boris for those notes on the affirmation sheet.they made me feel much better.[though you guys won't see this i have to say it.] (:

2006-10-17T22:48:00.000+08:00

my brother is flying off to taiwan for training.
he'll be away for 21days and now he and my parents are at the airport.
and i'm all alone at home with the music blasting and my french vanilla and tiramisu gelato.
yayness.

i passed my chem.with a 45%.
on the dot pass.yay.
and when i told my dad he said i thought you were gonna study for that one week and get a distinction?whoops.
i think taa rocks la.
we went out the day before the paper and she got a B.

ok the gelato was a mistake, my cramps are coming back.argh.

2006-10-16T22:30:00.000+08:00

oh my gosh!she is so fucking annoying!
she happily just clears the desktop.wow.
and then she blames all of us when we ask her where she put all OUR stuff which we saved on OUR computer.
why are some people just so selfish and self-centered?
why can't they just stick to their own stuff?
why must they come and ruin everything for us?
why must they make our not-so-happy-but-good-enough life so complicated?
why do they assume they are right and that what others say about people is false just because they don't want it to be true?even when the person who tells them this is the one who has cared for them all this while and wouldn't lie to them and does all to protect them.
and why am i so unlucky to have someone like you in my life?
why must you be such a bitch?

2006-10-11T22:35:00.000+08:00

passed gp.49%.
passed econs.i hope.it's 44.4% overall so hopefully they'll round up.
but i failed maths19.6% and hist29.2%.
so it's either J1 or poly for me next year.
i can just kiss 2T10.07 goodbye.

argh.was so stressed and emo and shit.
so i went for sushi buffet!with taa and gerald and shawn sat watching us eat.
yummy!and it took my mind off all the shit.(:
met andrew on the way home.haha.poor thing la you got school cannot join us for the buffet!
please don't ignore me.cannot say don't talk to me.i will be sad.

pw.the only reason i'm thinking of going to school tomorrow is for pw.

2006-10-10T22:35:00.000+08:00

so claire the girlfriend has commanded me to blog about sunday.
maybe i shall wait til you upload the pics before i blog.
heh.

ok so sunday was mass, junior caths meeting, newyorknewyork in city link for claires' birthday celebration.
lunch was three hours long!heh.
then esplanade rooftop.we ran up the down escalator!heh.
truth or dare whilst taa and i attempted to study for our chem paper.
truth or dare was fun!coz we did many many things and people were more willing to do the dares.(:
i think taa is so suay.coz she came up with the last dare.and she tio!woots.
and i think i have very little to say about sunday.so go read taa's blog about sunday.(:

today was fun.
chinese paper.did the usual.mcqs then sleep!(:
to sembawang shopping centre for a cut.it's really short.
to taa's place.gym and swim.nice.(:
back for dinner.and the comp.(:
i'm tired.and tomorrow is results day.
fuck.

2006-10-07T00:17:00.000+08:00

ello.i think we are so brilliant.
we = yumin[the mastermind], me[the main accomplice], maybelle, shidah, candice, soh, teresa.and huili came later.
we bluffed limin, and she believed us.
we gave her a surprise!
we bluffed that it was cancelled.heh.
i went to her house to watch the 7pm show and try to stall her til the rest were ready.
and they were so slow coz soh was so late.
stall stall in the end when they almost coming up then we went down.
hahaha.i tried to stop her but i had been stalling her for like half an hour already.
and she was so pissed with yumin!haha.
she insisted on going to play candles.haha.
so we surprised her.played with the candles and sparklers.built fires.
played truth or dare.not as exciting as the previous few games of truth or dare i've played.
loads of pictures.wait for candice shidah and teresa to upload.
now i'm sleepy and wanna go sleep.

2006-10-01T19:15:00.000+08:00

hey limin!i'm here to be your stress-reliever!
but you never call me or date me out.:(
study hard.make it to jc2.and then study hard and make it to uni.
i'm sure you can make it.
right now there's lots of stress but with effort and perseverance you can do it.
don't worry ok.saturday will come soon.and then we can just go and play our hearts out.
coz your promos will be over!yay!
i can't wait for saturday where the clique will meet again at our slacker place.(:

everyone is so stressed.coz of promos.
the past week was the only time where i can just relax.
back to school on monday.
preparation for H1 exam on the 9th.
chem, chinese, pw.just those 3subs every day.wow.
i end at 12 everyday.wow.
full of shit la.
i'm bloody worried about results.
i'm bloody worried about getting retained or kicked out.
i'm bloody worried that by some miracle i make it through and then i totally screw up my a's coz i can't catch up.
going out everyday is good to help relieve stress.but it's a hell load of money going down the drain.
but when i stay home, like the past two days, i start to think about results
bleah.full of shit.

2006-09-30T23:38:00.000+08:00

live messenger is annoying me.
can't sign in.bleah.for the whole day already.

the Asserter
Thanks for taking the test !
you chose AY - your Enneagram type is EIGHT.
"I must be strong"
Asserters are direct, self-reliant, self-confident, and protective.

How to Get Along with Me
Stand up for yourself... and me.
Be confident, strong, and direct.
Don't gossip about me or betray my trust.
Be vulnerable and share your feelings. See and acknowledge my tender, vulnerable side.
Give me space to be alone.
Acknowledge the contributions I make, but don't flatter me.
I often speak in an assertive way. Don't automatically assume it's a personal attack.
When I scream, curse, and stomp around, try to remember that's just the way I am.

What I Like About Being a Eight
being independent and self-reliant
being able to take charge and meet challenges head on
being courageous, straightforward, and honest
getting all the enjoyment I can out of life
supporting, empowering, and protecting those close to me
upholding just causes

What's Hard About Being a Eight
overwhelming people with my bluntness; scaring them away when I don't intend to
being restless and impatient with others' incompetence
sticking my neck out for people and receiving no appreciation for it
never forgetting injuries or injustices
putting too much pressure on myself
getting high blood pressure when people don't obey the rules or when things don't go right

Eights as Children Often
are independent; have an inner strength and a fighting spirit
are sometimes loners
seize control so they won't be controlled
fugure out others' weaknesses
attack verbally or physically when provoked
take charge in the family because they perceive themselves as the strongest, or grow up in difficult or abusive surroundings

Eights as Parents
are often loyal, caring, involved, and devoted
are sometimes overprotective
can be demanding, controlling, and rigid

The Quick & Painless ENNEAGRAM Test written by felk on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

2006-09-28T23:55:00.000+08:00

today.
sembawang shopping center with taa.
rubbished.
gerald came.
taa taught him chem.
arcaded.
taa's place.
pool.
dinner prepared by taa.yummy.(:
7pm show.
slack til 9.
home.mr bean pancake and soyabean milk.
prisonbreak.
shower.
comp.
wow.loves today.

tomorrow.
morning gym with mummy.
afternoon slackat home.
6pm plaza sing with priyanca, ivan, edward(??) and the guest-of-honour goldie goh.
woots.love the plans.(:

from now til monday.
it's just plain slacking and relaxing and enjoyment.
til school starts and chionging for chem starts.
then it's relaxing til results are out.
then it's decision-making to withdraw or stay on.

2006-09-28T01:13:00.001+08:00

before promos my goal was to pass, get promoted to 2T10.
i was thinking
-gp at least D.
-hist E.
-econs E/D.
-maths E.
realistic.seeing as how i'm weak in every subject.
i put in the effort.i put in the work.hoping i could at least scrape those grades.
but after doing the papers i've come up with some realistic predictions.
-gp still around D maybe E. essay 24/50 compre 27/50.
-hist F. international 20/50 SEA 10/50?
-econs S/E. essays 26/50 csq 15/30?
-maths F.big fat F!probably like 25/100.woow.
result:fail.
retained/kicked out.
yay.
i'm freaking worried la.i seriously wanna promote.
i chose this path.i wanna make sure i complete it.
i don't wanna be forced to give up halfway even though i have not put in my all yet.
coz i started working too late, there wasn't even time to catch up.
i can lie to myself saying there's no need to worry that i will definitely promote.
but what's the use of living in denial?
it'll then come to a point where when it's really gone and you'll feel like utter shitness coz you never had the chance to reconcile and prepare for the blow.
and then you'll take a long time to get over it.
and your next stage in life will be affected and the vicious cycle just continues on.
argh.

so yes.i believe that the possibility of me retaining is 50%.
the possibility of promoting is 20%.
the possibility of getting kicked out is 25%.
the possibility of me withdrawing immediately after promos results is 5%.

it sucks that after a shitty paper, you go down and the first thing you find out is your eyecandy is going out with someone.and the next thing is you see your coach whom you don't exactly like to see.and then you go home and end up sleeping the whole afternoon.and then at night you have diarrhoea and feel like shit.pun not intended.this is just so full of shit.eurgh!

2006-09-25T21:55:00.000+08:00

i think narinder will just kick me out of history forever.
my first essay was totally off.
i was supposed to write how it was but instead i wrote how it became.
and my other essay i wrote just one point.
woots.
i am so gonna pass history.
study session with taa at yishun10 bk.very productive!
did the aj paper.and the first three questions of mj paper.that's all.
shawn came while we were studying.
we ended up in the arcade playing taiplay and photohunt.
just before going up to watch our movie.
john tucker must die.freaking fuuny!and quite sad too.a must-see.
and after that we stoned outside kfc then ended up in foodcourt talking and sharing our dirty little secrets.heh.
i'm sure the studying was super productive!
and tomorrow i'm going out with my parents for like the whole day?

i've sorta given up already.argh.shit shit shit.
i have lost all confidence in the promos.

2006-09-22T22:15:00.000+08:00

chinese chinese.such a joke.
many people came even though they said they weren't.
i wrote some rubbish divorce story for zuo wen.sounded like some mediacorp drama serial.
and i only did those multiple choice questions for partb.coz i didn't understand the questions.
rocks.
amk macs.
study.with taa, gerald, claire and anthea.
pooled.full of shit.i have no skills at all.
disgusting amk bengs.
sent claire down coz she was afraid of the bengs who were trying to be funny.disgusting please.
back to macs for ice cream and truth or dare which turned into a truth session.
why do we always end up playing truth or dare?
many many things.full of shit.

sun plaza to study tomorrow.
chiong history.chiong chiong chiong.coz i have no choice.
i wanna promote to 2t10!argh.

i'm getting bored of blogging.
i have nothing to blog about anymore.

i'm off to bake cookies.
lucky people who go to sun plaza to study tomorrow will get to eat them.
heh.

2006-09-20T23:35:00.000+08:00

ok.for the sake of easwah who claims that my blog is making her blind, i've made the red brighter so there's a greater contrast and it's easier to see the words.(:

3 down.
gp.hopefully i can pass.
econs.was a joke.subpass would see me glad enough.
international history.crazy shit.one crappy essay.one totally waffled essay.
3 more to go.
chinese.will be a time to sleep.i wouldn't go if i could.
SEA history.i have no choice but to memorise all the shit.i need an overall c for promo paper to actually pass history.
maths.shall spend days and nights practising.

and then when 27thseptember comes.
i shall sing dance and make merry.
free for 5 days til school starts.
then one week of crazy chionging for chem.
hopefully i can get an A for chem.
then i start worrying about results.eeek!
and all the PW shit.and the chinese AO paper on 3rdnovember.

shitshitshit.this is just so full of shit.
i'm going for a run tomorrow.i feel like a workout.
maybe it'll help me relax before i continue with math and SEA hist.

2006-09-19T19:00:00.000+08:00

econs today was crazy.
first essay was a breeze.
second was like shit.i only knew like half the stuff.
case-study was shit.
i just crapped for three questions which total half the marks.

ok i was gonna blog a long entry.
but my show is on.
so bye!

2006-09-17T01:30:00.000+08:00

chong yumin!please be honoured.
the first thing i do when i reach home is to blog in kukus blog and my blog to wish you HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
please arh.seventeen years old already cannot still behave like small kid ok.
wah a whole entry dedicated to you on your birthday.
enjoy it.hope this day for you is a happy happy blessed one full of joy.(:

2006-09-15T00:05:00.000+08:00

i have been getting jealous much too easily recently.
no idea why i feel such envy whenever i find out or see certain things.
and it's about all parts of my life.
school work, friendships, relationships, places they go.
crap shit man.
i need to get out more often.i need to meet with friends more often.
to think that the place i've been going to most often recently is ang mo kio library.
wow.that's such a hip and happening hangout.
like how bishan has become a hip and happening hangout because the library opened.
argh.this is fos.
school is draining the life, emotions, sanity and logic outta me.
especially the studying for promos.
hiding from people i don't exactly wanna see.
getting all excited when i see some people.[seriously i have no idea why.]
i need a break.not just a day where i stay at home and slack.
coz i've already had two of that.
but i still feel like shit.
i wish i didn't go to jc.i wish i could just drop out now and live happy and carefree.
but i have no choice but to study.study study study.
coz promos start on monday.
realistic goals amanda.realistic goals.

sometimes i just hate my playlist so much.
coz all the stupid emo songs from back in sec3 and 4 are still in there.

tomorrow evening dinner than exam mass with church clique.
saturday evening dinner with the family.
sunday whole blinking day with the books.
monday starts promos.[which incidentally spells my doom.]

2006-09-13T22:45:00.000+08:00

ok so here goes.
The innocent victims of Internet child abuse cannot speak for themselves. http://www.lightamillioncandles.com/
so light a candle for them.
help in the fight against the child porn industry.

and to all students in secondary and jc.
study hard for end of year exams, promos, o'levels and a'levels.
coz as much as some of us hate it, society demands good grades in exams for us to get jobs here.

which month do i hate most?
i hate every month when it comes to that time of the month.
but generally i'm good.(:

i'm excited for saturday.(:

isn't it ironic how you can tell me how you think you seriously her and i can advice you when i'm so clearly attracted to you?though it seems rather wrong, i can't exactly help being attracted to a person can i?this is just FOS.i've hidden the fact that i'm attracted to you since last year.and now i find out you like her and you want me to help you achieve your wish of being with her.can you sense the irony?

2006-09-08T20:45:00.000+08:00

study study.
have been spending the past five days at ang mo kio library with wong.and occasionally limin.
but yet i have only done crisis of communism, collapse of communism, post cold war world, origins and containment for history.
integration, differentiation, maclaurins', graphs and functions, AP and GP for maths.
and demand for econs.
oh praise me please.
i have 10days to exams and i'm not even halfway through my syllabus.
i still have so much work left to do.argh.
and we haven't even finished learning our history.
we have one more lectures' worth to go through.
and today wazsn't even productive.
i did like origins and containment and spent the rest of the time talking to wong and then chelsea when she came later.
and then we left at 3.
and i went shopping with my parents.bought a pair of jeans.coz my jeans are already so old and are getting a tad bt uncomfortable since i've grown since i bought them and the hip part is tight.
praise me please.i give up studying to buy a jeans.
and when i got home i attempted to finish my history but i ended up sleeping in front of the tv.woots.
and since i got home i haven't done anymore work.eurgh.

and now it's back to work for me.
hopefully i'll be able to finish my revision.

2006-09-03T22:25:00.000+08:00

was talking to my mum about stuff.
and she happened to bring up something which happened in sec1 that made me super upset.
so i started thinking.
how come there are evil people in this world?
ok maybe i'm going abit overboard by calling the people who've hurt me evil but the stuff which my mum told me about was really done by evil people to her and people around her.
how come some people don't care about what people feel when they tell others stuff about them.
like if you were to go tell your mum stuff about me and then she goes and tells my mum all those stuff, be it good or bad, i wouldn't like it.and worst is when it's not true.
so why do people still go around telling people stuff about others?
if i tell you my private stuff why would you go tell any old random friend?
the fact that i tell you means i trust you and treat you as my close or good friend.
and then you make up rumors with the stuff i told you, exagerating the events or things and telling everyone and making everyone think lowly of me.
don't expect me to trust you or treat you as a good friend anymore.
the bad thing is people tend to believe these stories.
why do people enjoy ruining relationships?
ok sorry but i just had to get it off my chest.

my dad keeps on getting angry with me for the smallest things!
i have no idea what's wrong with him.
i heard my mum saying leave by 12 when she actually said sleep by 12.
i thought she was talking about tomorrow morning.
so i said i was leaveing at 9plus not 12.
and then he scolded me!
even when i explained that i heard my mum wrongly he still told me off.
eurgh.sometimes i wonder if he's pms-ing.heh.
his fuse has been rather short recently.

tomorrow i shall start studying.been slacking for too long.
haven't done intensive study since wednesday.
tomorrow bishan library bright and early til late in the evening.
study!!!promos creeping up on my.16more days.
OH MY GOSH!16 more days only....shit i seriously did not realise til i typed that out.
aaaahhhh.my history is so screwed.my econs is annoying me.my maths is such a hurdle.my gp is such a disappointment.and what's more there's chem in three weeks.and then pw all the way.and chinese AO in nov.aaaaaahhhhhhh......................

i must work.
i must study.
i must chiong.
all the way!
and then i start worrying whether i'll promote.

2006-09-02T01:15:00.000+08:00

i did something stupid that day.
i've been regretting it ever since.
fiona!i should ahve just done what you did.bleah.

anyways.
teachers' day!woots.
sjc.all the teachers.all the memories.all the juniors.
shit i miss it.
i wanna go back to that time.
at least i didn't have all this crap stress.and everyday was fun even though there was a lot of rubbish stuff which i got so depressed over.i had time to actually do stuff.
even though it was such a roller coaster of emotions and shit it's so much better than the rubbish i have now.
eurgh all this stress and the lack of time to do anything.

education is supposed to be fun.
but the singapore education system is such that you feel stressed to do well.
and we are forced to learn lots of things which may not be our interests and are of much higher levels than people our age are learning in other countries.
and that is because our society is such that certificates and results matter much more than happy carefree people in the workforce.
and the government wants teachers to teach less so we will learn more.
they come up with a campaign called teach less, learn more which by the way is not a proper sentence or phrase and has no grammer whatsoever in it.
but how are we supposed to learn more if we're not exposed to information or experiences?
they guard us so closely with their paternalistic style of ruling, how do we became savvy and street-smart if there's no exposure?

and what's the point of such a stressful education system where students' fates are decided by the exams they take, when for some who do exceptionally well, all they know is about the subjects syllabus they take and nothing more?
i just can't stand this education system of ours anymore.
i find i learnt much more of other things than academic stuff in sjc.
and i turned out alright.i scored the grades to make it to jc.
this is so annoying.stressful system equates to stressed people.
stressed people equates to lower productivity.
lower productivity equates to bad economy and poor society.

argh i'm starting to rant.
and my mum is so annoying!why can't she just let me use the computer?
it's my way of relaxing and destressing.
god knows i need much destressing.
i am so tempted to just drop out of school now.i hate this so much.

2006-08-27T22:05:00.000+08:00

compass today to study.
supposed to be shidah maybelle limin and myself.
but in the end it was just limin and i.
and limin left two hours earlier than i did.
so i studied.
and i wanna die coz i still can't finish my differentiation and maclaurins' questions.
i try and try so many times but yet i can't finish them.argh.
mugging tomorrow with hannah.
mugging on tuesday and wednesday.hopefully with wong and limin.
plans to mug on thursday with wong.but unconfirmed.
coz i have no freaking idea what's my schedule for thursday like.
i don't know if i have normal lessons or if i've the day off.
since the year twos have GP prelim and all.argh.
i want to go back to sjc for teachers' day celebrations.
all 4gr people go back aight!
it's supposed to be a sorta 4gr reunion.

i'm studying.studying hard.
coz i wanna do well in my promos.
coz i wanna get good grades.
so that even if i don't make it to year2 i might have a chance to repeat.
coz i'm putting in effort.coz seriously i don't wanna repeat, don't wanna drop out.
i just wanna work hard and get my a's done with.

H2 history test.wednesday.collapse of the USSR.
H2 econs test.wednesday.market failure case study.
promos.18th september.AAAAARRRRRHHHHHH.
yumin's birthday is not good coz when it comes means my promos is the next day.bleah.

2006-08-22T23:15:00.000+08:00

something very wrong with me recently.
no wish to do work or study at all.
no desire to go to school anymore.
at least when i first got these feelings i was able to quell them with the thought of going so i can see my eye-candys and then at least i'd be able to force myself to do work.
but now even that doesn't make me wanna go.
in fact it makes me even more unwilling to go.
eurgh.and it doesn't help that i just love that bunch of self-centered classmates.
and i blew up at my mum today when it wasn't really her fault.
i got pissed with one thing she said and vented my anger from the whole day on her.
bloody shit.

stress is not good.
people deal with stress in many different ways.
some people play sports, some people sleep, some people cry.
some people just give up totally and stop giving a damn about anything.
eurgh i can't stand this feeling.

dropping out of jc before promos.
dropping out after promos.
retaining in j1.
staying on and slogging it out, that is if promotion is granted.
options.now which to choose?

does always wanting to cry for no reason mean anything?
i'm being very selfish here.but i need you here right now.i need you to listen to me.i need you to knock sense into me.
~~but then again i need some time to just sit and cry and maybe i'll feel better.oh wait i already tried that and it doesn't seem to work.fuck this shit.i just need to let it all out.~~

2006-08-18T20:15:00.000+08:00

i feel fucking emo now.
i don't know how i don't know why.
past few days have not been good.
been feeling fucking emo.
why?i think it's to do with the PBL.
everytime PBL comes along i get all stressed and shit.

eurgh i hate this.
i hate when i get all emo and shit.
but i'm happy in school coz my friends around just make me smile.
the crazy silly things we all do that make me laugh til my stomach hurts and tears stream down my face.

i feel like doing maths.
i'm so proud of myself!
i did maths yesterday and figured out most of the questions i was stuck on and finished 5questions of the next tutorial.
yayness.maybe there is hope yet for my maths.
but i totally screwed out my history tutorial outline today.
and i failed both mymakeup tests.5 and 6 outta 25.
i improved by one mark.oh joy.
fuck la if i don't get at least a D for my promos i'm so gonna fail history.

and if i fail i'm gonna hafta drop out.
my mum suggested me going to MI instead of staying on in CJ.
NO WAY!!i'll have to see an idiot whom i don't wanna see.
and recently the idiot keeps messaging me on friendster.
i ignore the first, give a heck-care reply to the second.clearly shows i want the idiot to leave me alone.right?
well the idiot comes and sends another message!
ah fuck off la.
i'm having a bad enough time don't come and stick your ugly face in and make me even more annoyed.
the moment i see a message from that idiot my first reaction is what the fuck?again?!just fuck off can anot?!!
maybe i should just send that.hmm.

i am an annoyed piece of shit-hell irritated right now.
so my entry is full of fucks and anger.
please forgive this entry.
i have to get it off my chest.
i promise i'll be fine in a few days(:.

2006-08-12T19:45:00.000+08:00

hey 4gr people!pics and links of 5th august up on 4gr blog.
cheryl ling you think you very cool coz you found my blog?haha.HELLO!

i have not blogged in ten thousand years.busy studying.
do you know that doing history pbl is very stressful?
there's so many long readings which you have to read.
and actually going to the library to photocopy them is a killer.
we used up about four 5dollar value cards while copying all the readings.
for four people.so that's about 5dollars each.
i'm can just kill myself copying readings.
and the library's machine is spoilt so when you print there's a line across which doesn't get printed.
so for our readings there's one a white line across.rocks.

4gr outing on the 5th.
was great.
except for one small incident which happened which annoyed and embarassed me quite a bit.
but i got over that and had a great time.(:
swensen's for dinner.secret recipe cake for stef's birthday celebration on the steps outside marina square.followed by fireworks.with those.stef and silpa missing from the pic though.

then walking back and forth across clarke quay before heading to clarke quay mrt.train to hougang.with these crazy people.then bus ride home with stef.

and all that made me a very happy kiddo.
haha ok that's a very retarded picture.yumin forced me!haha.and then she refused to delete it even though i asked her to.
euww my face looks super oily there.

2006-08-04T21:25:00.000+08:00

oh my gosh i feel so guilty.
bestie i'm so sorry i was gonna post this yesterday but i'm sick and went to sleep immediately after i got home.
argh i feel so horrid.

HAPPY 17th!to my dearest BESTIE!(:

yay bestie!we've known each other since sec2.
sitting in the same group in miss yeo's class.not really talking much.
to sec3 sitting together for amaths and gossiping non-stop about our "bestfriend".
and sitting together for chinese lessons.and for actually so many lessons.
being such close besties.that many people misunderstood.haha.
to celebrating your birthday last year.

bestie study hard aight!(:
i miss bestie very much.

2006-07-20T21:45:00.000+08:00

ok so i'm supposed to be doing EOM now but my mind is a blank.
i've no idea what the hell to write.so i decided to come blog.

for the first time ever, i bought an issue of seventeen magazine.
and i only bought it because pre is in it.lol.
eh pre my friends think you're hot and really pretty.are they blind?:p
heh.no of course i do not think that.i agree that pre is hot and pretty.
aww pre are you touched yet?:p

ok and so i was reading the magazine and i realised the models are all skinny.
what you mean that the world has no fat girls?
ok so apparently in the world of "beauty magazines" i do not exist.
but then again beauty is subjective.and i find those "beauty magazines" kinda useless.
star world advertises that miss universe is the most prestigious title in the world.
well one would think winning the Nobel Peace Prize is more prestigious and worthwhile.
what's the point of starving yourself, going under a plastic surgeon's knife (ok not all of them do), wearing highly uncomfortable bikinis and gowns (ok my opinion here) and strapping on highly unhealthy stilettos?
just to parade yourself across a stage and have your image beamed across the world?
and have some lusty men (and women) ogle at you?
i find beauty paegents a waste of time.
and don't try to present it as some worthwhile cause like miss earth.
coz no matter what you call it they're all the same.
and haven't you noticed that all the contestants are skinny?
most in an unhealthy way.though some achieve that figure through exercise and healthy diets.
once again they are telling the world that i do not exist.

all these are the causes of this unhealthy obsession with weight among most females these days.
i say females cause this is happening to females from the tender age of 5 all the way to the age of 65.
if you're not overweight to an extent that it's a health problem then you are not fat.
so just shut up and stop whining about how you need to lose weight.

yay to non-skinny girls!yay to girls who are not obsessed with weight!

2006-07-13T22:00:00.000+08:00

oh yes for kat's sake, since she didn't realise, i use a haloscan.
so if you want to tag scroll to the end of the post and click.
i put the disclaimer there in case you forget , kat.:p

results are back.utterly horrid.
but i can't say i expected anything other than that.
and the funniest thing happened.
ok i'm a little slow to update this, but somehow our history scripts got lost.
apparently they were left on a bus.
and the best part of it is we still have not gotten an apology.
not that we're totally pissed and wanna kill the person but somehow an apology seems to be appropriate for such a situation.
something which we(ok most of the j1s) put so much effort and time into studying for gone like that and no apology or proper explanation?
i guess we'll just have to accept it and the laughter should not be wrong.
so we have two retests to do.each amounting 10%.
first one done, was an utter joke.
i didn't even fill one page.somehow i think my history shall be an F grade.
and it's a miracle, i got a sub-pass for chinese.
and i passed chem.wow.i'm just too smart for my own good.
without studying i can scrape some reasonable grades.

i'm in desperate need of some time-off.
i'm not stressed or depressed but somehow i just need some time.
like how i used to spend the secondary days.
just slacking each day.talking in every lesson.staying in school til late for no good reason.balling.much balling.and mainly i need someone whom i can just tell everything to coz now everything that's happening be it good or bad or just something is kept inside.i'm not complaining but i just want someone to rant to and have them understand what i mean without having to explain much.
i miss prethika.a bit random but yes i miss pre.

2006-07-05T18:25:00.000+08:00

seriously if you want to come here then at least find out the proper way of typing the address.
and i don't really appreciate you telling me that you won't come and read this but yet going behind my back trying to find the link.
i'm leaving the link there for you to come and see.but i seriously can't believe you would do this.
not after all that you said, not after all that you promised.

hokay.that done with.
judging by the way they've been talking, i'm sure i've failed my econs and chinese.
woots.and seems like chem and math won't be that great either.
i've greatest confidence for my history.that's the subject which everyone ends up failing.
so i guess i'm gonna fail eh?
my friend got back her results for her best paper.
and it's a sub-pass.i guess i'd suffer the same fate too.
looks like i'll have to study hard to garner the grades in promos.
that's 80% so hopefully i'd be able to scrape through.

today's chinese oral was a joke.i tried so hard not to burst out laughing.
the stupidest thing that could ever happen happened to me.
i didn't know how to read the first word.the first bloody word.sheesh.
so i just mumbled through coz it appeared like 6times?woots.
and the examiner asked me during the conversation "wouldn't you be afraid he'd hit you?"
(this was at the last part coz i said something about how i would confront a person.)
and i actually answered i wouldn't and that if he did i'd call the police!
what the fish?i think i went crazy.

oh my gah the weirdest thing happened this morning.
the most non-football fan in my family actually satyed up to watch the germany-italy match.alone!
so i woke up this morning to the results.i was darned shocked when my mum told me she watched the match alone.
ok i'm going to sleep now so i can watch the portugal france match.
DOWN WITH THE FRENCHIES!sorry i don't really like france.

2006-07-01T22:15:00.000+08:00

had to reach redhill at 8 for training this morning.
happily i go there to slack my ass off again since i didn't have my goalie pads.
i got there at 805am, tammy and angeline were there.
so sat and waited for the rest to come.in the end the rest ended up being charlotte.
nicely we have pathetically 4 j1s there.wonderful.
there was like twice the number of j2s?
and my stupid knee started to act up again.after 3rounds and it began hurting.

wonderful with my hurting knee i go down to bugis to meet limin and bestie.
shopping date!
haha.i ended up buying just one mickey mouse necklace which i'm using as a keychain.
coz it's seriously huge and i would look retarded if i wore it as a necklace.
you can go to limin's blog for a peek at it.you'd have to scroll down abit.
that pic there is lifesize ok.damn shit huge ass.
i set my eye on a bag and a jacket.but both are 30+bucks.
i shall get my mum to go with me.then she can bargain for me and if she's in a good mood she'll pay for me.muahaha.
i realised that i'm currently obsessed with brown.so buy me brown stuff!chocolate included.:p

it's so annoying when you take the mrt home.past bishan with your friend who gets off at bishan.you start walking home from your stop and you've already crossed the road, already done like 90% of the distance when your mum calls you and tells you to go back to bishan to meet her.argh.i had to walk all the way back ok.but then i was going to meet her for dinner so i guess that makes up for it.haha.

i'm seriously freaking tired and i'm in desparate need of some shut eye.
but i wanna watch the england match, so i shall stay up.haha.
monday is youth day.apparently it's a holiday.apparently some schools have a day off.
but i don't know anything about it?!do i have monday off?someone?anyone?
oh my god i feel so suaku.

2006-06-29T18:25:00.000+08:00

so the mids are over.
all we have left is to wait for the horrible results to come in.
hopefully i can scrape through.oh bleah.

supposed to go for sushi buffet with my mum today.
but she's sick.i've been cheated of my buffet.
anyways saturday shopping date.
don't know if i can make it.

HAPPY 17TH NEIGHBOUR!!(:
since sec2 when we were just normal classmates til i somehow became your suwati.
to the time during our lousy 2fchalet with only 6 people.
to sec3 where we ended up in the same class again.
sitting together for chemistry, the chemistry crap mates.
to sec4 when our lockers were next to each other, we became nighbours.
and sitting together for chinese lessons rubbishing away and telling zhanglaoshi you were helping me with chinese everytime she caught us talking.
i miss all the silly things we did all the fun silly times we had.
you're older now.must be sensible.silly things only at silly times.
and don't get angry too often.you don't wanna get more wrinkles now do you?:p

2006-06-27T21:41:00.000+08:00

chemistry was so great.
i could only do like half the paper.
but at least i tried to write some crap.
bishan macs to study maths.
with taa and gerald.anthea came later.
they go and study also like no point la.
nothing done also.
taa busy doing sudoku.
gerald busy looking at girls and commenting.
anthea busy watching the match on the stupid noisy macs tv.
well i completed my work.
managed to practise all the topics.
but i've only got confidence for half the topics.

we should just sue the exams board and the moe.
or rather we should sue the person who came up the idea of exams.
it ends up as much ado over nothing.
stress so much for just a few pieces of paper.
i don't understand why.
see the small kids in africa.
they may be starving they may have no chance of education,
but they're happy, carefree.
i wanna be happy and carefree too.

2006-06-26T22:12:00.000+08:00

oh my gah hilarious please!
it's an actual song!

(IS THIS THE WAY TO) THE WORLD CUP -

All across the nation
You can taste the expectation
Finish what we started
ENGLAND the lion hearted

Every single player (woe oh oh oh oh)
Holds our destiny (woe oh oh oh oh)
and they'll all be heroes
on plasma screen TVs

ENGLAND WIN THE WORLD CUP
Dig Deep, don't come unstuck
ENGLAND WIN THE WORLD CUP
Stevie G score for me

ENGLAND WIN THE WORLD CUP
40 years, don't come unstuck
ENGLAND WIN THE WORLD CUP
Beckham scores a penalty

sha la la la la la la la ENGLAND
sha la la la la la la la ENGLAND
sha la la la la la la la
we've got the greatest football league

Every fan is singing
It's a ROAR - ENGLAND'S winning
Let's go down the local
Have a laugh and get all vocal

we're gonna cruise the group stage (woe oh oh oh oh)
we should win all three (woe oh oh oh oh)
the last 16's easy 'cause we've got Wayne Rooney eeeeee

ENGLAND WIN THE WORLD CUP
Michael Owen's always good luck
ENGLAND WIN THE WORLD CUP
Sven'll dance like old Nobby

ENGLAND WIN THE WORLD CUP
40 years, don't come unstuck
ENGLAND WIN THE WORLD CUP
Then knight them all Your Majesty

sha la la la la la la la
sha la la la la la la la
sha la la la la la la la
we've got the greatest football league

sha la la la la la la la
sha la la la la la la la
sha la la la la la la la
Beckham scores a penalty

sha la la la la la la la
sha la la la la la la la
sha la la la la la la la
Sven'll dance like old Nobby

sha la la la la la la la
sha la la la la la la la
sha la la la la la la la
Then knight them all your majesty

New lyrics by Big George Webley and Ian Stringer

2006-06-26T21:15:00.000+08:00

congrats to me.
i screwed up chinese.
i left 28 marks outta 50 blank.i wrote crap for the 9mark question.
wonderful.
econs was wonderful.
everyone busy writing 3or4 pages for each while i happily wrote 2 pages for each.
splendid grades i shall get.
history last friday was a bomb already.
seeing as how i wrote so much less than everyone else.as usual.

i think i'm really silly.
mids are 20% of promotional grade.
and i don't study.
this sounds very much like secondary school.
never bothering to study til the really major exam comes up.
tsk.

just some regular rants.
i swear i cannot stand this anymore.
what a wonderful class we are.
everyone hates everyone.
wonderful.can you feel the love?
bloody shithead have a problem then say it to my face.
coward.bitching behind my back, telling my friend that i'm a sick freak.
fuck off man.you're just an attention-seeking whiny little boy like you were in primary school.
and you will always be.
jealous that i'm getting more attention than you?
face the facts.im smarter than you and you are just a poseur.
you disgust me.
i swear our class is seriously screwed.
we have the worst combination of personalities and characters.
everyone is clashing.we're gonna collaspe one day.

2006-06-25T21:05:00.000+08:00

Put your playlist on shuffle and see which song turns up for each question.

1.How does the world view me? don't look back in anger - oasis they think i'm angry?
2.Will I have a happy life? with arms wide open - creed i'm gonna have a kid?
3.What do my friends think of me? you - switchfoot i rely on you to save me?who's the you?
4.Do people secretly lust after me? learning to breathe - switchfoot a new start?so people gonna start lusting after me now?
5.How can I make myself better? perfect situation - weezer take every chance in my love life?what the fish?
6.What should I do with my life? hey mama -black eyed peas be some booty shaking bitch?
7.Will I ever have children? wake me up before you go go - wham erm what?it's a song about going dancing!
8.What's some good advice for me? moody monday - damien rice what the?mondays are not good coz they're moody?
9.How will I be remembered? my sacrifice - creed hahaha.i will be remembered for all the sacrifices i made.lol.cool.
10.What's my signature dancing song? this love - maroon 5 not exactly a very dancy song but what the hey it's nice.(:
11.What song will play at my funeral? the reason - hoobastank WHAT THE?!is this seriously like my song or something?damn shit why does it keep on appearing?
12.What was yesterday like? bitch - meredith brooks yesterday was a bitch?it was ok what.

got that of pre's blog.
ok so i was bored.
chinese and econs tomorrow.
two of my three weakest subjects.
oh joy.
i take six subjects and i have three weak subjects.
and it's not like i'm some genius at the others.
seriously?i'm screwed.
and i'm being honest here.
i didn't even bother picking up my chinese notes.
and my econs book is lieing on my couch half done.
tomorrow is a good day to die.

2006-06-22T20:47:00.000+08:00

part one.

and part two.

oh my gah damn cute please.
the two boys i mean.

2006-06-20T22:15:00.000+08:00

t10 bbq truthfully was a bore.
arrived at 730.ate.
left at 9 with noah.
sentosa today with limin and wong.
got off at the wrong stop.walked long way and ended at merlion walk.
realised there was no access down to the beach.
walked back to the same stop to take the bus down one stop.
eurgh retarded.
cycled.wong fell so we slowly made our way back.
the irony is she was more steady on the bike after that.
maybe coz we were going so slowly.
sat at the bridge and soaked our feet in the water.woah so cool.
heh.gossipped.talked cock.caught up on some stuff.
then to bugis street.they bought their bling bling.
bought a tee.it's nice.it's super long la.
wanted to buy more but didn't really see anything.
and my cash is little tight.
i shall return there with my mum one day.muahaha.

2006-06-16T20:38:00.000+08:00

my brother wants to act cool so he took my phone.
and he has such a lousy phone.
i can't use it, no reception when i put my sim card in.
so i exchanged with my mum.heh.
the world is crazy.
exams are soon.hist next friday.
and i've not started studying.
despite how everyone's been saying if i don't do well i'd be retained.
oh bleah.
ok i don't have anything to blog.
i just wanted to come in coz my blog seems rather dead.
monday 1t1o bbq.
tuesday sentosa.
friday clique outing?oh bleah.can't go for this one.

2006-06-09T18:16:00.000+08:00

ok back from ltc.
uber fun.(:
2nd day at safra yishun was crazy please.
doing the 3storey jump.
and the canopy walk.
mind you i have a fear of heights.
as in when you look straight down and there's nothing there and you wanna die.
stupid canopy walk which made me shake like a leaf and cry like a baby.
and the most annoying is i didn't even manage to finish it.bleah.
i fell at the last part!argh.
and i fell into a hole at one of the activities.
some stupid hole in the ground and my left leg was in up to my knee.
3rd day trekking in sembawang.
tired shit.blisters on my toes and bottom of my foot.
walked damn far la.
the houses there are damn shit huge la.
damn nice ok.
i'm lazy to blog about the four days.
so you can go read the blogs of the other participants.
heh.or wait til one day when i feel like blogging about it.

i wanna go back to safra yishun and finish that stupid walk.
i wanna go to sentosa and cycle and swim.
i wanna study and do well for mids.
i wanna watch the world cup.
i wanna do so many things but i'm not getting down to it yet.oh crap.

2006-06-04T21:55:00.000+08:00

ok so off i go to ltc.
4days.i shall miss my bed.
my bag is super tight la.no more space.
thanks to my extra pair of shoes and my sandles.
but it's kinda light.so no trouble.lol.
macdonalds breakfast!i want.
thank goodness for ling.
coz we both wanna eat brekkie.lol.
then we shall cab to school!coz i'm lazy.haha.
i want to sleep!ok bye.

2006-06-02T01:25:00.000+08:00

EYE-CANDY [adj]
a person who's a treat for the eye;
usually physically attractive
so why do people think that i seriously like my eyecandys?
as of may27th i have had no more eyecandys.
coz i realised that someone had such a misunderstanding and that it wasn't worth the misunderstandings.
and wednesday in school i heard and saw something which makes me think that such a misunderstanding has occured again with another person.
why can't people see that eyecandys are just that, eyecandys?
seriously the person i like isn't even in cj.sheesh.

on a lighter note.
we did the tags!
and they're funky cool.
bright green!
and our names are written in dark green.
teehee.
are we too greenie for you?
but the back has PUSH in black.
so it's not that green.
and apparently our group is the only ones super enthu about the tags?
some groups like just leave one person to settle all.
some people don't even know how to do their tags.

pop princess is stuck in my head.
oh bleah.

supposed sentosa outing with limin and cheryl on tuesday.sick.
postponed to saturday.recovering, ltc coming, mum don't allow.
postponed indefinately.
lol.i promise i will make it up to you guys aight.
after ltc.promise.(:

2006-05-26T23:07:00.000+08:00

ltc precamp session today was annoying.
ended so late.
and i got a huge scolding because of that.
oh bleah.
but the great thing about it is i'm in the same group as anne!
yayness.
PUSH.persevere until something happens.
we had to rethink our group name so many times.
we came up with 6 but all got rejected.
and then we had to get a name before we could leave.
bleah.

oh excitement.
sjc family day tomorrow.
then maybe watching X3 after that.

off i go to watch grey's anatomy.
got season2 on my comp.(:

2006-05-25T20:16:00.000+08:00

so today was a day off.supposedly a study day.
obviously i didn't study.
woke up at 8 to watch ameircan idol.
i swear americans are deaf and blind.
as is a particular friend of mine.
i mean seriously kat is so much more talented than him.
and she is oh so georgeous and HOT!!
and she's darn sexy.
even though my friend strongly disagrees.
we think he's gay.haha.
ok i should go do some work now.
GP exam tomorrow sounds boring.
pre-ltc session after that sounds fun.
will be meeting with our groups.

sjc family day on saturday.
everyone go!
10 to 2.anytime you feel like just go down aight?(:
if you don't wanna go alone then drop me a line.
you can go with me!(:

2006-05-22T21:25:00.000+08:00

it's times like this when i remember how much i hate men.
eurgh.
and also how i got my fear of relationships.
bleah.
oh one shit idiotic thing done can ruin a whole day and probably more days to come.
being a little unfair here.
not all relationships turn out this way.
but most of those i've seen of people at our age have ended up this way.
either for one or the other or both.
cry and cry like someone died.
and spoil the rest of the family's mood.

ok shit sucks when it happens.
and i'm becoming incoherent.

today was so funny please.
after school in the canteen.
went totally gaga.no idea why.
crazy la.
i think i so rock la.
practically everyday i see all of my eyecandys.

sjc family day this saturday.
i want to go.
and i want all of 4gr to go.
i think i shall talk to anne and then we shall try to make it a sorta 4gr gathering.
hurh.
that is if anyone else wants to go.

2006-05-21T22:15:00.000+08:00

i'm so pissed please.
what a wonderful time to fall sick.
flu and high fever since friday.
i think it's coz of the PBL.
and thanks to that i missed MI carnival!argh.
EVERYONE was there.and i missed it!
bleah.
the only one consolation is that according to pre the carnival sucked.
but the fact is i knew right from the start that it would suck.
but i wanted to go see the people.
bleah.

i swear i'm such an idiot.
i told anisha all my 1,2,3 and said there's only three.
and then when we're in the toilet i can happily say oh so good today i saw all four.
i swear i'm so brilliant.

coz when you are with me i'm free.
i'm careless i believe.

2006-05-18T05:30:00.000+08:00

call me crazy for blogging at this hour.
530am everyone still sleeping yet here i am blogging.
well blogging at 530am is nothing when you've been up all night doing history.
which was due yesterday.
and i'm not even done yet.
i've got one more hour to finish my question analysis, essay, and analysis of research.
wonderful.
they're all half-done.
at least my study guide is done.
the most tiring and difficult one.
how am i going to get through school tomorrow on the 4hours of sleep i had yesterday?
i slept at 6 and woke up at 10 and then got down to doing my history.
no sleep since then.wonderful.

how embarrasing.i broke down in front of a few of my classmates and miss chua.
i think i just rock so badly la.argh!
history is so stressful.and it sucks even more when you can't do your other H2 subjects.
oh bleah.

back to work!i just had to come here and rant.

2006-05-13T01:15:00.000+08:00

cip later.1-6pm.
oh poo.shall have to bring all my work there to do.
hopefully the guys can help me since they're like science students.
haha.i shall ask them all my chem and maths homework.
then i can ask the girls for help with history.
woots.
amanda said it'd be kinda slack.
coz she did it last year and it was super slack.
yay.
anne said that she even though she always reads my blog she doesn't know anything anymore.
so i wrote her a letter during econs lecture.i think it was tuesday.
i'm still waiting for a reply.

thursday was sports carnival.
the fun was fun.
but i also got super pissed by some rubbish happenings.
then ivan priyanca hannah and i did two very stupid things.haha.
then island creamery for ice cream.
walked back to ccab.
thanks priyanca for walking with me.
the most annoying thing is the weather was perfectly fine.
a little cloudy and very cool.
then once priyanca got on her bus and i started walking to ccab from the bus stop it started to rain.
and the walk into the hockey pitch is kinda far.
so i got very wet.
caught the last bit of the ij and jj match.
edeline!chin up aight.there's still next year.
ok that's kinda retarded coz she won't even see this.oh well.
i should go and sleep now.
and i should go charge my phone.it's dieing.

after meeting edeline on thursday and getting pat's sms just now,
i suddenly miss cat class a hell lot.

2006-05-06T00:38:00.000+08:00

as great as it was supposed to be,
today sucked.
ok well friday actually but the date says saturday coz it's past midnight.
school was a bummer as usual.
handed in my PI which i only started on last night at like 10.
got there a little late for the match vs njc.
was a big bummer.
left delta at 630 when i was supposed to meet them at like 6.
didn't really feel like going but i'd already said i would so i went.
reached city hall met up with yumin and peggie.
walked a hell long way to suntec pasta mania.
which truthfully i think is lousy.pasta mania isn't good.
walked around suntec.fountain of wealth.walked back to city link.
then got kinda pissed when we were about to leave.
felt it was rather pointless just standing there with no suggestions or decisions made.

i'm sorry that i just walked off like that guys.

i was tired and moody and grumpy and pissed.

homework piling up.don't understand shit.i feel damn stupid.

stupid napfa test.crazy trainings.i feel damn lousy.

i'm so tempted to just drop out of school and run away and live the life of a vagrant with no cares in the world.

coz everything just seriously sucks,

especially when you can't take anymore shit.

2006-04-30T23:55:00.000+08:00

benjy's house for T10 gathering/benjy's surprise birthday party just now.
fun sia.
helped eileen play mahjong and she kept on winning!haha.
played truth or dare.didn't kena.
then played i never.
revealed loads of my secrets to T10 la.
but then again what happpens in the room stays in the room.
the best was gene's reaction to one of my revelations la.
what the fuck?!
biggo reaction.haha.
just got home not long ago.
cabbed back.dropped pris off.

yay my food is ready.
i shall go eat now.
no idea why i'm so freaking hungry.

2006-04-29T12:25:00.000+08:00

skipped training yesterday coz i was feeling kinda sick.
went down to sjc to collect o'level cert.
headed over to auntie monica's place to meet my parents.
and i swear the cab ride home was the longest and most expensive cab ride i've ever taken.
22bucks just to get from pasir ris to ang mo kio.
and it wasn't even midnight or whatever.
stupid la.even from sentosa to ang mo kio with midnight surcharge only about 15bucks.
jam on our usual route so took another longer route which turned out to be jammed too.
and my head was throbbing away the whole time.
almost died.

thinking of getting a haircut today.
let's see if i'm not too lazy to go.
haha.

2006-04-22T18:59:00.000+08:00

training at delta.
so many people!
all the teams that manjit coaches la.
craziness.many matches.
watched like 20mins of the CSCguys vs SAFSA match.
it was seriously damn cool.
the way they handle the ball and all.
woots!
saw jaime there!her bf is on the safsa team.cool.
oh gosh i didn't recognise her at first.
haen't seen her for almost a year.
at first i was like just walking and looking around then i saw her and i was like just looking at her.
then i realised she was smiling at me.
and i was wondering "who is that person why is she smiling at me?"
i walked like two steps past her.
and i was looking at her for super long before realising who she was.
hurhur.
and i had to walk two steps back to say hi.
super retarded la.
i'm so lazy to go study now.
oh poo i shall just go watch football.

2006-04-16T21:57:00.000+08:00

encore II today.
saw sherry and stef at raffles mrt.
waited with them for hagerty then walked over.
but limin shidah yumin and maybelle were still not there.
walked back towards the bridge saw suz.
then finally they arrived.
went in just in time.
yelled and yelled for wong.(:
the band was great!
the songs were fantastic.
the whole atmosphere was just superb.
super high.was shouting away with maybelle and shidah.
gave wong clar and kamini the roses during intermission.
then guitar and angklung.
oh gosh angklung is so cool la.
and their performance was super cute.
then gave maureen the rose!
hung around talked.
then limin shidah maybelle yumin left.
sorry guys.pangsehed you all.
had an extra rose so i gave it to silpa.
went dinner with suz hagerty sherry stef and silpa.
some place at clarke quay called club iguana or something like that.
school tomorrow and i drink.tsktsk.
hurhur.

everyone's going to different places!
boohoo.
all the poly people.
hanging out with sjc people is so fun.
hurhur.(:

2006-04-13T23:15:00.000+08:00

first things first.
only friend is the best!
haha.i'm supposed to blog that.
coz she was willing to accompany me for the half an hour that i had to kill.(:
fiona koh!are you satisfied?

moving on.
things have been looking up.
the stress is still mounting.
but i'm surviving.
my mood has been really weird.
most of the day i'd been moody and all that shit.
but then something would happen and i'd get a fuzzy feeling and my stomach does a few flips and i feel much better.
even as simple as seeing her walking past my class.haha.
just a little something called eyecandy.
hurhur.
but seriously i'm not the only one who thinks she's hot ok.
people keep on telling me she's like damn hot and damn pretty.
like i think i've noticed that since day1?
heh i met my eyecandy on the first day of school.
thanks to a certain busmate.
hurhur.
yes talking alot about eyecandy.
sorry but i saw her many times today.

sjc's band concert this sunday!
met wong just now to get the tickets.
for limin shidah and yumin.
woots.

long weekend.
loads of time to catch up on my work.

a'divs coming up.
thank goodness i'm not playing this year.
i would just let everything in.haha.
hope the girls will get to the finals.
i'm sure we can make it through.(:
they've been training hard and playing hard.
woots.
everyone agrees most cj hockey girls are HOT!woots.
haha.

2006-04-09T22:45:00.000+08:00

it's time to just freak out and die.
school work piling up and killing me.
oh blah.
all i can say is jc life is tough.
consistent work is needed.
but as everyone knows.
i'm a slacker!
i work at the last minute.
come on i didn't do homework throughout sec3 and 4 and only started studying for o's in october?
how to survive jc?
seriously stressed.superbly lost.
i feel like slapping someone upside down and round a few corners.
thanks goodness there's hockey trainings to relieve some of the stress.
and the eyecandy.(:
haha.yes at least there's things to take my mind off the huge pile of work.
even if only for a while.

oh yayness.
sjc band concert on sunday.
limin shidah maybelle maybe soh and yumin.
we shall see wong perform!yay.

oh bummer my mum is irritatingly teling me the time every five minutes in an attempt to get me off the computer and go iron my uniform and go to sleep.
blah irritatingness.

i seriously feel very guilty and bogged down.

2006-04-09T02:05:00.000+08:00

i hate my template.
i shall go look for a new one.
i'm starting to crumble a little.
felt so totally lost on thursday night.
not coz i had just watched lost.
too overwhelmed with the amount of work i had to finish by friday.
which i obviously didn't.
i seriously didn't kow what i was doing.
i wanted to go to sleep but somehow i ended up in the kitchen and then i walked to my parents' room.
super duper lost.
oh blah.

i need to go back to church.
oh blah.
i keep on promising taa i'd go but i never do.
i feel damn shit guilty.

2006-04-02T18:59:00.000+08:00

changed template.kinda gay but oh well.
i actually blogged yesterday(sunday) but am only posting now.
so that's why the date is a little screwed.

there's this really nice song i heard once before.
and i never thought i'd hear it again but then today it appeared again.
and i felt especially guilty when i heard it coz i told taa i'd go to church but i didn't.
got it from a link on anne's blog.

Why
Nicole Nordeman

We rode into town the other day
Just me and my daddy
He said I'd finally reached that age
And I could ride next to him on a horse
That of course was not quite as wide

We heard a crowd of people shouting
And so we stopped to find out why
And there was that man that my dad said he loved
But today there was fear in his eyes

So I said daddy why are they screaming
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is he dressed in that bright purple robe?
I'll bet that crown hurts him more then he shows
Daddy please can't you do something?
He looks as though he's gonna cry
You said he was stronger then all of those guys
Daddy please tell me why?
Why does everyone want him to die?

Later that day the sky grew cloudy
And daddy said I should go inside
Somehow he knew things would get stormy
Boy was he right
But I could not keep from wondering If there was something he had to hide
So after he left I had to find out
I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowds
To a hill where I knew men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from the cross

And it said father why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for my clothes?
This crown of thorns hurts me more then it shows
Father please can't you do something?
I know that you must hear my cry's
I thought I could handle a cross of this size
Father remind me why?
Why does everyone want me to die?
When will I understand why?

My precious son
I hear them screaming
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming
But soon I will clothe you in robes of my own
Jesus this hurts me much more then you know
But this dark hour
I must do nothing
Though I've heard your unbearable cries
The power in your blood
Destroys all of the lies
Soon you'll see past their unmerciful lies
Look there below
See the child
Trembling by her father's side
Now I can tell you why
She is why you must die

2006-03-31T21:50:00.000+08:00

oh gosh i have not been online for forever.
it's the same old routine.
monday wednesday and friday.
school.training.home.shower.dinner.sleep.
thursday.
school.pe last period.home.shower.dinner.sleep.
tuesday is the only day i reach home before 6 la.
and for the whole of this week i just shower eat and sleep immediately once i reached home.
at the most is i squeeze in one hour of tv, one hour of revision.
i'm so dieing in hockey la.
but no choice must perservere.
and rocks la i forgot my colac password.

2006-03-26T20:45:00.000+08:00

yesterday was quite sucky.
rush rush rush.end up in deep shit.
but good thing is i got to see all the loves.(:
early morning down to redhill for training.
run a little then sit around and watch them play against vj.
not bad they drew nil-nil.
rush down to sengkang.
limin came to meet me earlier.thanks.(:
maybelle rushed down.
then went over to sjc.
soh rushed down.went in for awards.
maybelle didn't feel like it though so she left.
then sat through the thing.
shifted over to sit with peggie and all.
performances were cool.different.(:
then met with the litclan and all.
hung around school a while.talked ate
bused down to yiochukang road.
supposed to have dinner with them.
but mum called and yelled all sorta vulgaritites.
then dad called and yelled and said if i wasn't home by 20mins i didn't need to go home anymore.
so shit la.
arh well all's fine now.

2006-03-21T22:43:00.000+08:00

oh my stupid phone is pissing me off big time.
the stupid camera is all screwed up la.
bleah.
but everything else is working fine.
argh.
oh yes i have got free incoming!yay!
and finally free sms.
finally i don't have to pay 5cents for every single sms and 29cents every minute i make a call.
but still the camera isn't working!!argh.
bleah.
and somehow when i look at the camera thingy it seems like there isn't a camera there at all.
bleah.
have to go down to the shop tomorrow to check it out.

bleah i'm still sick.
got worse yesterday.
my voice is dying off.
mc for two days.
so much medicine to take.
bleah!

2006-03-19T22:15:00.000+08:00

i swear my mum will make the worst PI ever.
hahaha.
if you're gonna check my phone, make sure that you put them back in the same place.
it was like at a different place facing the total opposite direction.
and she just told me the other day that she checked through my brother's one too.
hahahahaha.
so discreet eh?
oh well.i've got nothing to hide in there anyways.

school tomorrow.
with the cj uniform!
oh man just ironed it.
i seriously think that the pinafore is much better.
maybe coz i'm like used to it already.

my mum is crazy.
she's bugging me to study everyday.
study what?!
when people are telling me they're so free everyday that they don't know what to do.
and that they wanna organise many many bbqs.
i'm stuck here listening to my mother telling me to study.
eh seriously i've already finished my history homework and read through all my notes.
organised my notes nicely.
still want me to study??
it's like i've just started and i'm already working she want me to work harder?
she thinks i'm superwoman.
she's trying to drive me crazy.
she's trying to make me a nerd!
aaaahhhhh!!the horrors.

2006-03-17T22:25:00.000+08:00

skipped hockey twice in a row.
yesterday and today.
supposed to go tomorrow's training but dammit i'm sick.
so i have to skip that too.
tell me like that how to get into the team?
bleah.
already screwed up at the first training.
stupid me go run til my head was spinning like a top still wanna force myself to continue.
hahaha.
yes i suck.woots.
let's all be emo and depressed and suicidal.
bleah i'm not in the best of moods now.being sick does that to me.
i woke up late today and almost missed the timing for getting uniform.
woke up an hour later than supposed.
reach school like just 15mins before they were gonna end.
thank goodness or i would have only one skirt!
it's gonna be so weird on monday man.
wearing the uniform.
it's a skirt!eurgh.
please be prepared to see me all fidgety and uncomfortable.

2006-03-14T17:10:00.000+08:00

makeup lectures are good.
learn stuff which you were supposed to learn in MI when you never bothered going for lectures.haha.
lectures then kovan for lunch with limin and shidah.
all for limin's silly yoshi toy.
russell got into cj!cool.
he's in 2 with nicole.
i'm hoping other appeals would be sucessful too.
saw avril in the cj uniform.
felt really weird seeing her in the uniform!
and she buttoned it all the way up.
hahaha.
looked so retarded but yet she says she likes?
hockey trials tomorrow.
seriously irritated la.
so what if i was in ld and not a sport.
doesn't give you a right to give that sorta look.
it's not as if i'm some couch potato.
argh.some people judge before they know anything.
retarded.
f off la.

2006-03-11T23:25:00.000+08:00

ok 1T10.yay!
but i didn't get my combi.
i'm not doing lit.like wth?
but i've appealed.
hopefully it'll get through.
i mean shawn eileen and kaijun are all doing lit as 4th h2.
so maybe they can squeeze me into those lessons.
ok cool la.
in T10 there's gene who i've known since pri4.
and there's shawn.
both of their brothers are my brother's good friends!
singapore is too tiny.
anne's in 7, avril's in 11 and fiona's in 31.4gr girls all split.
fiona and stefo are classmates!
and they were in the same ig together with katrina.
oh my gah.
everyone knows everyone.

went for sjc's sports day yesterday.
oh so fun please.
but couldn't go for rockafella.
opportunity cost.hahahah.
saw many many people.(:
saw chantelle(:.
wah i really miss her.
my fave junior la cannot help it.haha.
chantelle you owe me an outing and my present!:p
saw bestie!(:, teresa, kamini, daryl, kristle.
just to name the more important few.(:
the ones i miss the most.

can i say that neighbour is just too sweet?
half an entry dedicated to me.
wah neighbour rocks man!

2006-03-11T19:57:00.000+08:00

http://youtube.com/watch?v=DKg22Al4SOE&search=the%20simpsons
hilarious!woots!
off to cook dinner.
will blog about stuff later!(:

2006-03-07T20:35:00.000+08:00

ok anne wants me to update.
so here goes.
i've finally met the people on anne's blog.
well not all but most.
all her loggers and t7ners.
haha.
cj rocks la.my ig is super funny la.
bloody jokers all of them.
and the guys are gay!hahaha.
joanie!hurhur.
tomorrow we'll be split into classes.
exciting!these are the people i'll be spending the rest of my time in cj with.
eh anne i dunno what to update about anymore.

2006-03-06T20:55:00.000+08:00

OH SO FUN PLEASE!
hahaha.huiren's in my ig!
yay!
i'm not alone.and there's amelia and martina who happens to be darylyn's cousin!
whoooooo!
oh my gah.there's so many people in cj!
most importantly anne, avril, fiona, siti, and all the other sjc girls.
ALSO!!taa!petrina!tasha!huiren!marian!carrie!randall!too many man too many.
loads of the MI people are in cj la.hahaha.
there's like 10 4f girls and 10 more 4h girls but just 4 4g girls.
but it's ok!
i was so high today la.
and i was like screaming so much whenever i saw anyone i knew.haha.
but petrina's reaction is the ultimate la.
she started screaming and pointing when i waved at her.
and she was upstairs and i was downstairs!hahaha.
oh my dream school la.hahaha.
i shall go eat my chicken rice now.
tata!

2006-03-05T00:10:00.000+08:00

http://kevan.org/nohari?name=schmuck+olsen!(:
ok this one's a little different from http://kevan.org/johari?name=schmuck+olsen!(:
do both anyway!hahaha.
today was candice's house for some mahjong.
super fun!
maybelle yumin meiting limin peggie shidah and gerard.
gerard was mine and peggie's delievery man.haha.
he bought our lunch for us.
then after that was RM for some snacks to recharge.
over to meiting's house.
did the silly cards counting thingy for shidah and maybelle.
the one which i did for pre and aneesa that day.
then home.i'm tired.i wanna sleep.
and i only came in here to blog because i wanted to post the kevan stuff.
so bye.

2006-03-03T20:25:00.000+08:00

oh joy.
cjc arts.
woohoo.
cj is so efficient la.
i already received a letter from them about monday.
hahaha.IG04.
eh why didn't i get og4 for MI?then i would be same as shidah.
but it's ok!coz i love og11!aww gonna miss the mi people like dunno what man.
i'm excited for monday!
i'm finally gonna be going to school with anisha again!
good old times.haha.
woke up so early just to check posting and prepare in case i needed to appeal.
and when i saw the results i just punched the air and shouted yes!
then i ran to my brother's room and jumped on his bed and started hitting him yelling that i got in.
and the silly boy just continued sleeping!
bleah.haha.
then i went to school.for what?i dunno.
the last chance for me to slack.with them.
blah!

2006-03-02T23:55:00.000+08:00

janice:
nah it's some silly story thing.the girl is complaining about her boyfriend treating her with such indifference in her diary and his entry for the same day is that sentence.haha.

today was fun!
a little irritating at first though.
went to toa payoh.
pre came and blah shit happened.
we were a little pissed.
then scary shit la.
were planning on having brekkie at toa payoh.
walked towards the escalator to wait for aneesa.
and then scary la.i met elle.
and she was like 'orh what are you doing here?eh your brother is over there you know?at bk.'
wah lao!we got out of there man!
after begging her not to tell.haha.
town.ya kun at far east for brekkie.
then coffee bean at taka.
for like 3hours?!
walked past laura ashley.hurhur.
then heeren.they shopped at shops which i wasn't interested in.
haha i would be at the other end of the shop from them.
bombers!(:yummy!
aneesa left.talked with pre.
hey girl no worries ok.whatever it is...friends over stupid guys!
and maybe we're just being paranoid about the whole thing with her la.
just go with the flow and do whatever you think is right.
i'll support whatever you do.(:
then rory came during his break.
haha funny la.
i'll miss the MI people.

my brother is a funny boy!
he wanted to do the laundry.
so he took the clothes out of the washing machine and started hanging them up.
and then he realised......
the clothes hadn't been washed yet!
hahahaha.
and he got so agitated and depressed.
emo-boy la.

2006-03-01T22:15:00.000+08:00

oh my gah this is hilarious.

HER DIARY
Sunday night - I thought he was acting weird. We had made plans to meet at a cafe to have some coffee. I was shopping with my friends all day long, so I thought he was upset at the fact that I was a bit late, but he made no comment. Conversation wasn't flowing so I suggested that we go somewhere quiet so we could talk, he agreed but he kept quiet and absent. I asked him what was wrong - he said, "Nothing." I asked him if it was my fault that he was upset.He said it had nothing to do with me and not to worry. On the way home I told him that I loved him, he simply smiled and kept driving. I can't explain his behavior; I don't know why he didn't say, "I love you,too." When we got home I felt as if I had lost him, as if he wanted nothing to do with me anymore. He just sat there and watched TV; he seemed distant and absent. Finally I decided to go to bed. About 10 minutes later he came to bed. I decided that I could not take it anymore, so I decided to confront him with the situation but he had fallen asleep. I started crying and cried until I too fell asleep. I don't know what to do. I'm almost sure that his thoughts are with someone else. My life is a disaster.

HIS DIARY
Today Manchester United lost the match. DAMNIT.Aiyah!!!!!!!!

wahahahahahahahahah,
i laughed my ass off when i saw it.
skipped school today.
was supposed to meet pre and farah at 730 but i only woke up ay 830.
so i just messaged pre and went back to sleep!hahaha.
plan tomorrow is to go out!
meeting at 8 at toa payoh.
but i'll probably reach there by 710 coz if i leave later than 7 my mum will get suspicious.
but thank goodness pre's gonna reach there about 715.(:
OG lunch after that.
whoooo.excited.
posting soon!and then off to cj i shall go.
hopefully.haha.

it's been boring recently.
so my blog reflects that boring-ess too.

2006-02-26T21:35:00.000+08:00

walking on the beach with the water running over your feet in the dark of night.
so romantic!
haha.
but it's romantic only if you're walking with the special someone.
it wasn't for me.hurhur.
coz i was walking with stef and we screamed and ran whenever the water came too high.
hurhur.but it was fun!
i want more outings with them.
makeshift bbqs are fun.
yay!outing with limin and all soon.whee!
somehow going back to MI tomorrow doesn't sound fun.
i miss the times with those people.
yesterday reminded me of the times and i miss it luh....